Monday, October 24, 2011
Saturday, June 18, 2011
Keeping an open heart
A friend asked me the other day why it was so difficult for me to move on from situations that I know are not for my highest good or that no longer serves me ???? Relationships in which I suffer and I undermine myself for the sake of others ? Why do I stay in bad situations where I feel pain and sorrow ??
I replied "because when I say goodbye to someone that I loved it feels like an actual death to me.....I actually go through a grieving process where I feel the pains of losing someone " This may sounds highly dramatic to some, however this is my reality. I am a very feeling , emotional, creative woman , therefore my highs are high and my lows are low.
It feels like death. Therefore saying goodbyes is never an easy process for me. One which I would rather avoid at any cost .
In the past, I have made the concious choice to eliminate 3 childhood friends from my life. Friends whom I still love and think of often. Each time it was very very sad for me..the best choice for me at the time and definately still is but none the less extrememly hard.
My relationships now boil down to this .............. taking off the massive "rose coloured glasses" that I tend to wear. Just take them right off and see the truth of situations!If it looks like a duck and quacks like a duck .....IT IS A DUCK!!!
And my new motto is "I could love everyone at a soul level and forgive people at a heart level but I do not need to continually sacrafice and have them in my life.
AND Just because I could "understand" deeply why a person does what they do, does not mean I must accept it in my life . If it's not working for me , I now move on. I'ts getting much easier as I cultivate my core. My center. This is my newest peice of spiritual work COMING BACK HOME TO ME !!!! My centre, my core , falling back into me. Making myself happy rather than depending on other people or circumstances happy.
Keeping an open heart
xo
Love to me and you,
Jess
I replied "because when I say goodbye to someone that I loved it feels like an actual death to me.....I actually go through a grieving process where I feel the pains of losing someone " This may sounds highly dramatic to some, however this is my reality. I am a very feeling , emotional, creative woman , therefore my highs are high and my lows are low.
It feels like death. Therefore saying goodbyes is never an easy process for me. One which I would rather avoid at any cost .
In the past, I have made the concious choice to eliminate 3 childhood friends from my life. Friends whom I still love and think of often. Each time it was very very sad for me..the best choice for me at the time and definately still is but none the less extrememly hard.
My relationships now boil down to this .............. taking off the massive "rose coloured glasses" that I tend to wear. Just take them right off and see the truth of situations!If it looks like a duck and quacks like a duck .....IT IS A DUCK!!!
And my new motto is "I could love everyone at a soul level and forgive people at a heart level but I do not need to continually sacrafice and have them in my life.
AND Just because I could "understand" deeply why a person does what they do, does not mean I must accept it in my life . If it's not working for me , I now move on. I'ts getting much easier as I cultivate my core. My center. This is my newest peice of spiritual work COMING BACK HOME TO ME !!!! My centre, my core , falling back into me. Making myself happy rather than depending on other people or circumstances happy.
Keeping an open heart
xo
Love to me and you,
Jess
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